One would think since I have not written on my blog in awhile that things were quiet. NO WAY! I know that my daughter is in her second year of college. This year we are accepting a different way of thinking, letting go. Once she leaves the nest the only controllable situations I have are her financial assets and if the grades don't make it, not paying for school.
Since I went away to school I know that there is not much you can do to influence a 19 year old girl. I have equipped her with the tools for college, birth control, the knowledge of don't ever go to a gathering and leave your drink. Always carry it around with you! Watch the boys and always go to class. My big one is don't drink and take your meds. This is a disaster waiting to happen. I do hope she listens to me, but since I am not there to nag, the chances that she takes my advice are really random. So, I guess the less I know the better.
I am a big believer of astrology. I do believe in God but I also believe in destiny and karma. My children, both with learning disabilities, were not given to me by mistake. My mission in life is to guide, help and assist. Got it, working on it! Of course as everyone is aware the implementation is a big difficult. But I do believe we reap what we sow. I try to tell both of my children this, I also get a little help from an astrologer friend of mine. She gave me some information on my daughter and I don't know how I feel about it. I know that at 19 years old we definitely experiment, don't listen to our parents and feel we know everything, been there done that! My daughter is no angel by no means, she does defy the odds. She does have a heart and clearly is trying to overcome all the difficulties that her disability has put in her path. She has to overcome the disappointments of girls not liking her because of her disability, the bullying, the badgering and deception. As a loving Mother, I can't help her here, I can only give her the best therapist I can so she can work this out, Oh and believe me it took a lot to find one at college. She does go once a week. Guidance is all I can give so far away. So we'll see what happens this year. We also gave her extra help in her studies so that when she finds herself puzzled there is somewhere to go and figure it out, Boy let's hope this all works, I have my fingers crossed. I say this in all my blogs, it's not easy, you think you have gotten over one hurtle and the second one comes right behind it. You think you have not done enough, cry, ask God why, pick yourself up and say, I'm doing the best I can. You know that you are! You are doing more than anyone knows, but you know. I feel life is our test, we can pass or keep coming back for more. Myself, I'd rather not keep coming back to the same garbage, but who knows if I am doing what I am supposed to do.
My advice for today, hang in there, live each day and be happy you have your children and you are healthy. That's all we can do!
